
Jail ~ MoP 17
Transition ~ MoP 16
liquid, always flowing.
indecision in the air,
no roots are growing.
searching for solidity,
a place, a home,
desparately seeking,
a place to call her own.
another move,
(5 just last 2 years.)
another mile,
(4200 when the end draws near.)
when will it end?
screamed to the night.
when can by body settle.
and my soul take flight?

Bizzy bizzy Girl
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Horizon ~ MoP 15
a glint of hope on the horizon
nothing left to do but venture out
and pray that the path will guide her
she is a tortured soul, they say
twisted roads traveled and worn.
the journey rests heavy on her shoulders
but hope keeps her moving on
the light glistens on new found joy
will her luck hold out?
for if this path turns out false
this will be the one to break her.

Lust ~ MoP 14
lips tangled in her hair.
breath comes sallow,
the power of lust is there.
her hand glides slowly
up powerful spine.
his hands move gently,
heart beat in time.
candlelight flickers
across pale hue skin.
her body his hands
mold into him.
the night is theirs to own.
is a beautiful sight
when pleasure comes to
take to new heights.

black and gray and red ~ MoP 13
my heart still bleeds in red.
i sit and wait, lonely night
wishing for another way.
a fault of mine is where i wear
my wounded heart for all to see.
the scars they tempt passers by,
to rend them more, poke, prod.
my lucky day is here right now,
but the time is bittersweet.
the price i paid has bled me out,
a chapter close, move on, I say.

Friday the 13th

Should I find the correlation between the fact that I was born on a Friday the 13th and my seemingly unending amount of bad luck amusing? Or is my subconscious just playing roulette with my life? When bad things happen I have always said, "Well, I was born on Friday the 13th!" Yet, I still count the calender, getting amost giddy when my birthday once again falls on that special day.
So, no paraskavedekatriaphobia here! I have an affinity for black cats, broken more than my share of mirrors in my time... and I am sure there is a ladder in there somewhere too! I have always felt a bit special being the 'unlucky one', but wish luck would once turn my way, smile, and grace me with her touch.

Mental Stimulation
I remember dreams before, but its been awhile.
It's been awhile, but I do remember dreaming those about you.
This was very strong, I woke up craving. Wish you were a bit closer.. I would be coming over to fuck you. I think we would probably both be bruised afterwards. Hands full of hair and just animalistic energy.
so when are you going to get here?? ;)
If I do I may kidnap you.
kidnap?
Yes, kidnap, fuck, enslave, fuck some more.
*grin, drool*
Well, I guess I need to try and sleep with this craving or I will never sleep tonight, but its there and I hope I do dream of you again.
screw the dreaming, get your ass down here and bruise me!!
In memory of... ~ MoP 11
her oldest son
who passed away
last night
too young, he was
to die so young
too many questions
unanswered
still in shock
she sits and stares
unbelieving
her boy is gone
i pray regret
does not haunt her
for the moments
she missed with him
my heart it hurts
for the pain
she feels, as
I hug my daughters
closer
*in memory of my cousin who passed away today, R.I.P

1WW ~ for a friend
We met back in my slave-ass kicking days, she was a fellow proDomme. Even after I left the Den, we kept in contact sporatically, and she used to come into the nightclub I managed most weeks. In hindsight, we weren't as close as we could have, or should have, been. Life and drama causing me to neglect alot of friendships back in that time. We have both been through hell the past year or 2 with a past relationship, which has caused us to reconnect somewhat even though we are separated by 2100 miles now.
Miss B is a few years younger than me and has small children like me as well, this makes her news hit all that much closer to home. She is strong, and I know she is going battle this with all she has. She has too. There is no choice but to beat it!
So, my wish is for her... to do with however she wants. She is in my thoughts and my heart always.

*picture c/o postsecret.com
Crazy ~ MoP 10
thank you ~ MoP 9
In Color ~ MoP 8
Invisible Rain ~ MoP 7
Silently ~ MoP 6
What NOT to say to a Dom
Apparently, the thing NOT to say to a Dom is...
Can't have you hurting yourself, because I still need to beat you for
disappearing for 2 weeks and making me worry!
I never got an IM back, LOL
*checks off on list* Do Not tell a Dom you are going to beat them, check.
fame, where's fortune??
Memories ~MoP 4
callie, sexologist?
Hey, I have a question that maybe you can answer? Its kinda personal, but it will make me understand what my friend is telling me about. I am not sure if its
true.
Oh, here we go..
Do women have more intense orgasms while having anal sex or not? I just find it hard to believe, but he says its true. I'm so confused.
Shit, there goes my nap!
I certainly cannot speak for any other female, but I told him that I thought that yes, it is true for most women. And that many can't have a purely vaginal orgasm without some clitoral or anal stimulation thrown in the mix. I, also, worked with a girl that prefered anal over vaginal.
For me, I have always classified 3 different types of orgasm: vaginal, clitoral, and of course anal. They each feel different and have different degrees of intensity singly. Combine all 3 at once, and Oh My God!! SM was the master at the SixPack when burying his head between my legs, and I was a happy girl everytime! Mmmm....
Oops, I got sidetracked. Where was I?
Oh! The messages...
Can I ask, have you done it? Is it great?
WTF! Am I talking to the 40-year-old virgin here?! You've never?!?
I have never known it would be good. Always thought it would be more painful than you have said. Never met anyone who was interested.
I think my mind came to a screeching halt. This buddy of mine... every other sentence is about sex. The guy gets alot. Hot wife at home, some swinging on the side... 3somes, sex parties. Not like he's unexperienced. In fact, I am the prude next to him.
Except on this topic, I guess!! LOL Not like I am an anal-whore by any means whatsoever! I certainly like a digit slipped when being licked like a toostie pop, but full-on anal is only an occasional treat for me. When done right, its I see stars!!
What do you think? Bigger, better orgasms from anal or just too much to mess with?
Cry and Hope ~ MoP 3
To escape the hypocrasy.
Tied down to a future,
I didn't want,
Didn't ask for,
Don't deserve.
What did I ever do to you?
Why do you treat me as you do?
Sure, perfection
Is not my strong point.
I have my flaws,
Scars and torments.
But I try and
Cry and hope.
Struggling to get free,
These double-standards
Are killing me.

TMI Tuesday 2

Red and White ~ MoP #1
Backward and Forward
I got alot accomplished and nothing at all done this month! The first half I got a good bit of studying in despite a streak of infections with my wisdom teeth. Finally got those darn things out a few weeks ago! Which has turned me into an unmotivated, blog surfing, lump of laziness the last half of the month.
I remember my dad made some crack about me getting my "smart" teeth out before the surgery. Shit, he may have been right!
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Have a lot of plans for the month of February. Besides getting back into the swing of things with school, I want to try and start working out again in the mornings, and go through my belongings and de-clutter a bit.
As for the blog... besides the HNT, TMI, and 1WW's, I am going to attempt to participate in A Month of Poetry. The site says:
A Month of Poetry is a challenge to write a poem a day in the month of February. Send your poems to us, post them on your own blog (send us a link), print them in chapbooks and sell them, read them aloud to your friends, or burn them one by one. Just keep writing.
Time to brush the ol' cobwebs off the creative noggin' and see what I can come up with. This should be interesting. ;)
Great Cake Debate
callie: i got Ho Ho's today, hee hee!
SM: LOL it's the little things.
callie: ya, the name alone makes them more fun to eat than just the cupcakes.. even though its the same darn ingredients.
SM: LMAO
callie: AND Ho Ho's are better than DingDongs... go figure .
SM: i don't know about that
callie: *gasp* you like DingDongs more than Ho Ho's?
SM: ha ha ha. yeah i do
callie: Ho Ho's have more cream filling
SM: you sure about tthat
callie: more filling, less cake
SM: LOL
callie: Although... they did get the names backwards... considering
SM: i was thinking the same thing. LOL i was going to call you a perv
callie: I am a perv, but you cant call me one if you were thinkin' it too
It's the little amusements that keep me from nodding off at the computer at 3 a.m. Still amazes me, the crap my mind comes up with sometimes. :D

What do you think?
TMI Tuesday 1 ~ Movie Edition
1. What was the last movie you saw in a theater?
OMG! Ready for this one?? It was Superman Returns in 2006!! Which I had to see not only once, but again when it came to IMAX in 3-D, thanks to my Superman-obsessed ex, SM.
2. What is your favorite movie theater snack?
Mmmm.. gotta have Red Vines... fresh ones.. all soft and chewy.. *drool*
3. Have you ever snuck in 'outside' food into a theater?
EVERY time I go... or, uh, went that is! Unless I am on a date and he is paying. ;) but that hasn't happened in... ohh, AGES!! The theater just charges way too much for stale candy.
4. Have you ever made out in a theater?
Oh, yea! Who hasn't at least hit 'first base' at the movies??
5. What is the 'farthest' you have gone in a theater?
Umm... second base, rounding 3rd *brushes cobwebs off the memories* Oh, do drive-ins count?? Hee hee!
Bonus (as in optional): What is one of your favorite movie sex scene?
The first one that comes to mind is Boxing Helena. There are several oh soo hot scenes in that movie, but the one that comes to mind is when Nick and his girlfriend, Anne, are getting sweaty while Helena watches through a crack in the door. A song by Enigma is playing... and it pauses.. the breathing... ohh my! *starts fanning self* H.O.T. I think I need to go rent that movie again!
I tried to find a clip.. but no luck! Here is the trailer if you haven't seen the movie. It's one of my favorites, but definately has the creepy-factor going on.

Waiting

But...
HNT #3 ~ M.I.A.
oops. I am late, but that is nothing new.. the eternal procrastinator!
...starts digging though photos
If I were a boy..
*(This artist is Lisa Lavie and I am absolutely in love with her since finding her on youTube. She does covers that showcase her amazing voice, but her originals are just as great. I am sure I will have more of her music on here as time goes by, but check her out on your own!)
Eggs
So recently, I just decided to ditch the old profile and start new for the new year. Along with the old screenname not reflecting who I am any longer, the whole 'I want to tame the Domme' scenario that I seem to get from those that don't actually take the time to read my profile is getting rather old.
Like any dating/social site, there are 100 bad eggs for every 1 good egg you happen across. But the site does provide some amusement while skipping around basket in hand for the elusive real Dominant. ;) VanImp at Vanilla Impaired calls those bad eggs "Duminants" and so true it is! Here is her blog on how to spot this abundant species and tips on how to avoid being pestered by one!
I got this message a week or so ago that I had to share! I think this guy fits VanImp's criteria.
First contact from SirClueless*: Kneel and open your mouth
My reply: Only if you want it bitten off. Do not presume to order me.. you are NOT my master.
hee hee
Clueless: Smiles. But that could be rectified. You have a beautiful back and beautiful profile
Wow, dense. I am thinking he didn't get the point the first time around, just a guess though.. However, that day I didn't want to waste more energy on this eejit.
Me: Not going to happen. Sorry. Good luck, elsewhere.
Him: I didnt expect the tediousness of that from your profile!
my blank stare...uhh......My profile says very little... but one of the things it does say is that I am NOT looking for an eejit... err.. Master. That I am only there to meet new people and friends. I think I need to start letting my little Domme back out again, and start seeing just how much I can toy with the Duminants.
*names have been changed to protect the...errm...innocent?
Nip/Tuck
I had been toying with the idea of moving over to WordPress and even set up an account and imported my posts last week. I heard they are more customizable among other things (if you want to pay, I found out!) These past few days over there I have been trying on the pretties, twirling in the mirror, trying to get a feel for their setup. I just couldn't get used to it, I guess. I couldn't find that perfect little black dress that fit just right.
So, here I stay for now. Maybe someday when I have more time to devote to programming, have a bigger audience, and in general just need more... we'll give it another go.